Goodbye, 2012!!

もしもし？？カリちゃん、今どこ？

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Right now, I'm at home, about to sleep. It's 11:05 pm now. Yeah, I'm going to sleep now, and no, I'm not going to wait for midnight now for 2013. I'm too tired to go out Cairoli and watch the fireworks display. Party pooper, aren't I? Haha...

Before 2012 ends, I want to recall everything happened on this year going to end in less than an hour. From that moment when I have finally moved on from a love that I can't really abide by, to masquerade parties, to my 18th party-less birthday, to 3 day food trip, to the CHICKENz's final live, to the Tanabata festival events, to stalker issues and to tear jerking farewells and more, this year has become the most memorable one, and this year helped me filter all the people I know who to trust and love or not. This year helped me face the future as my past is making me who I am. I have gained and lost friends this year and helped me open a door to someone I can lean on to. I have learned so much, although I get upset, and disappointed at times, I am still here, fighting. Life has its own ups and downs, and we all know that.

Let's just say I am one of the luckiest person living this year for I have found new friends, new love, new hope and a new adventure through fade Family, Dears, travels, school and cosplay. If I have never made my move this year, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you, yes you, reading this blog post.

Tomorrow is the start of our new 365 page or 12 chapter book. Never hesitate. Go write a good one!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE! MAKE OUR VOICES BE HEARD!

Kari ☆

Pressure

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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I'm still here, at the bedroom, trying to look for an effective diet plan for me. Let's see, I have cosplay photo shoot for January and May and a drama play in 2 weeks... and was required to lose at least 3 kilos of weight or lose a lot of centimeters on my waist, stomach and thighs since they told me this: I look hideous. Like seriously. Hideous because of the acne on my face (already worked that out) and that I am fat. Too fat for a 4"11 teen. It hurt, but gave me the motivation to start this whole diet program thing. And to think, it's not only those that pressures me, but also my family, especially my parents. They see me eat a few, they scold me but after dinner, they scold me too because I'm already fat. As if they we're saying that my body is worse than my body when I arrived in Italia.

Seriously, it hurt. It really hurt.

Although losing 10 kilos in 90 days might be a huge pain but I think I can get used to it, right?

To be honest, I hate what I have become now, because it pressures me a lot. *sigh*

I guess I should continue my research on the diet program. Good night!!!

Love lots
Kari

The snow made me write a blog.

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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I'm here. I'm in the bedroom with mom and dad sleeping while I'm standing by the window, watching the snow to fall while writing a song tonight, already biting the end of my pencil. Honestly, I don't know what really happened in the past few days. Did the snow secretly sucked out my memories of the week? Hmm... I doubt that.

What I can remember is the fade Stream, my first snow experience in EU, MIYAVI in J-Wave's USTREAM, Camui Gakuen peeps in a skirt singing AKB48's Heavy Ritation, GACKT's niconico live and Jon's tweet of someone throwing a banana to him as he was singing whike walking down the street. In my personal life, probably fangirling with Caitlin about ONE OK ROCK and Rurouni Kenshin...or maybe fade and GACKT, talking to ex and to Claudia about her being courted by her classmate (even gave her a stuffed bear), writing Christmas cards for friends  and drawing Doraemon for Rani.

Speaking of which, Signora Teresa saw that Doraemon drawing I gave to Rani earlier at the class and talked to us about her collection of Doraemon, and how she liked Nobita in her childhood. Possibilities of having an Otaku teacher?? I guess so.

The snow is getting thicker now... and it's a few minutes till midnight already and I can't seem to get drowsy or what. Hot chocolate didn't help me at all. I can't seem to fall asleep as I can the past few days. I guess my sleeping problems came back.

I did uploaded some records in my Soundcloud account yesterday, by the way.

Anyowls...

I guess I'll try to sleep again. Good night.

Love lots
Kari

Expect the unexpected.

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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I'm in a tram right now, on my way home from BLACK CIRCUS, where INORAN-sama and his 6 samurais performed last September 13th, trying to collect my thoughts. I'm in a #14 tram, and just passed by Saturn, a huge  electronic shop here in Milan. This week is pretty crazy for me  although it rained on the weekdays. It's crazy freezing tonight, about 5°c or 6°c tonight. And no, I didn't go to BLACK CIRCUS tonight for a DAMAGE LIVER, unfortunately. I only went there to check my band and our plans for the month. Who knows, we might perform in some clubs here for a living, right? Anyowls...

For the past few weeks, I'm having sleeping problems, especially when dad starts to snore. Probably I'll sleep at 1am or 2am and wake up before 8am because I need to catch Claudia online, plus I need to make breakfast, make the bed, and a few minutes of house chores... but less than 8 hours sleep is cool right? As long as you have sleep?

Last night (or was it the other night?) the church held a surprise birthday party for Maica, a churchmate who celebrated her 18th birthday. As expected, she cried in joy, and the place is fricking packed (not to mention, the noise...) and I thought I was just a guest in the said party, I was one of the 18 wristbands.

And a few hours before that, I chatted with Claudia and (yay!) she has internet in her home already in her new room. She talked to me about the new stocks of kimonos (I did mention that, I think...) and while talking to her, VOILA! My ex-boyfriend chatted me after months of ignoring(!!!), saying that he misses me, despite the lies and ever since last year December, he's been single and stuff, and we talked about my school crdentials. My sadist side came in to me that time but I tried to be nice and talked to him nicely AS A STRANGER.

(*checks clock* omg it's monday already!!! 00:16, walking now...freezing...heels are killing me...)

And my classmate from elementary school back in the Philippines chatted me too, after 7 or 8 long years, praising me because I'm here in Italy already and asked me of my bully, Greg if I can still recall him. Yeah, i can still recall him and I'm still pissed. First guy who ever gave me a bruise.

Anyways, I'm in front of the building now... goodnight. I'll post again if I have something on my mind.

Love lots,
Kari

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I got this shot from earlier while waiting for dad to pick me up from the church. Good night!