Goodbye, 2012!!

もしもし？？カリちゃん、今どこ？

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Right now, I'm at home, about to sleep. It's 11:05 pm now. Yeah, I'm going to sleep now, and no, I'm not going to wait for midnight now for 2013. I'm too tired to go out Cairoli and watch the fireworks display. Party pooper, aren't I? Haha...

Before 2012 ends, I want to recall everything happened on this year going to end in less than an hour. From that moment when I have finally moved on from a love that I can't really abide by, to masquerade parties, to my 18th party-less birthday, to 3 day food trip, to the CHICKENz's final live, to the Tanabata festival events, to stalker issues and to tear jerking farewells and more, this year has become the most memorable one, and this year helped me filter all the people I know who to trust and love or not. This year helped me face the future as my past is making me who I am. I have gained and lost friends this year and helped me open a door to someone I can lean on to. I have learned so much, although I get upset, and disappointed at times, I am still here, fighting. Life has its own ups and downs, and we all know that.

Let's just say I am one of the luckiest person living this year for I have found new friends, new love, new hope and a new adventure through fade Family, Dears, travels, school and cosplay. If I have never made my move this year, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you, yes you, reading this blog post.

Tomorrow is the start of our new 365 page or 12 chapter book. Never hesitate. Go write a good one!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE! MAKE OUR VOICES BE HEARD!

Kari ☆

Pressure

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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I'm still here, at the bedroom, trying to look for an effective diet plan for me. Let's see, I have cosplay photo shoot for January and May and a drama play in 2 weeks... and was required to lose at least 3 kilos of weight or lose a lot of centimeters on my waist, stomach and thighs since they told me this: I look hideous. Like seriously. Hideous because of the acne on my face (already worked that out) and that I am fat. Too fat for a 4"11 teen. It hurt, but gave me the motivation to start this whole diet program thing. And to think, it's not only those that pressures me, but also my family, especially my parents. They see me eat a few, they scold me but after dinner, they scold me too because I'm already fat. As if they we're saying that my body is worse than my body when I arrived in Italia.

Seriously, it hurt. It really hurt.

Although losing 10 kilos in 90 days might be a huge pain but I think I can get used to it, right?

To be honest, I hate what I have become now, because it pressures me a lot. *sigh*

I guess I should continue my research on the diet program. Good night!!!

Love lots
Kari

The snow made me write a blog.

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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I'm here. I'm in the bedroom with mom and dad sleeping while I'm standing by the window, watching the snow to fall while writing a song tonight, already biting the end of my pencil. Honestly, I don't know what really happened in the past few days. Did the snow secretly sucked out my memories of the week? Hmm... I doubt that.

What I can remember is the fade Stream, my first snow experience in EU, MIYAVI in J-Wave's USTREAM, Camui Gakuen peeps in a skirt singing AKB48's Heavy Ritation, GACKT's niconico live and Jon's tweet of someone throwing a banana to him as he was singing whike walking down the street. In my personal life, probably fangirling with Caitlin about ONE OK ROCK and Rurouni Kenshin...or maybe fade and GACKT, talking to ex and to Claudia about her being courted by her classmate (even gave her a stuffed bear), writing Christmas cards for friends  and drawing Doraemon for Rani.

Speaking of which, Signora Teresa saw that Doraemon drawing I gave to Rani earlier at the class and talked to us about her collection of Doraemon, and how she liked Nobita in her childhood. Possibilities of having an Otaku teacher?? I guess so.

The snow is getting thicker now... and it's a few minutes till midnight already and I can't seem to get drowsy or what. Hot chocolate didn't help me at all. I can't seem to fall asleep as I can the past few days. I guess my sleeping problems came back.

I did uploaded some records in my Soundcloud account yesterday, by the way.

Anyowls...

I guess I'll try to sleep again. Good night.

Love lots
Kari

Expect the unexpected.

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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I'm in a tram right now, on my way home from BLACK CIRCUS, where INORAN-sama and his 6 samurais performed last September 13th, trying to collect my thoughts. I'm in a #14 tram, and just passed by Saturn, a huge  electronic shop here in Milan. This week is pretty crazy for me  although it rained on the weekdays. It's crazy freezing tonight, about 5°c or 6°c tonight. And no, I didn't go to BLACK CIRCUS tonight for a DAMAGE LIVER, unfortunately. I only went there to check my band and our plans for the month. Who knows, we might perform in some clubs here for a living, right? Anyowls...

For the past few weeks, I'm having sleeping problems, especially when dad starts to snore. Probably I'll sleep at 1am or 2am and wake up before 8am because I need to catch Claudia online, plus I need to make breakfast, make the bed, and a few minutes of house chores... but less than 8 hours sleep is cool right? As long as you have sleep?

Last night (or was it the other night?) the church held a surprise birthday party for Maica, a churchmate who celebrated her 18th birthday. As expected, she cried in joy, and the place is fricking packed (not to mention, the noise...) and I thought I was just a guest in the said party, I was one of the 18 wristbands.

And a few hours before that, I chatted with Claudia and (yay!) she has internet in her home already in her new room. She talked to me about the new stocks of kimonos (I did mention that, I think...) and while talking to her, VOILA! My ex-boyfriend chatted me after months of ignoring(!!!), saying that he misses me, despite the lies and ever since last year December, he's been single and stuff, and we talked about my school crdentials. My sadist side came in to me that time but I tried to be nice and talked to him nicely AS A STRANGER.

(*checks clock* omg it's monday already!!! 00:16, walking now...freezing...heels are killing me...)

And my classmate from elementary school back in the Philippines chatted me too, after 7 or 8 long years, praising me because I'm here in Italy already and asked me of my bully, Greg if I can still recall him. Yeah, i can still recall him and I'm still pissed. First guy who ever gave me a bruise.

Anyways, I'm in front of the building now... goodnight. I'll post again if I have something on my mind.

Love lots,
Kari

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I got this shot from earlier while waiting for dad to pick me up from the church. Good night!

RANDOM POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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Today, I'm still at home, about to take a shower. I decided to do this first since I'll be busy after. I just talked to Claudia earlier and this time, she has no microphone and we talked about her being with Regina who recently deleted me in Facebook, new stocks in Japan Wares in KM 6 La Trinidad in the Philippines, anime, and GACKT's photos on LINE.

Speaking of GACKT, I was quite surprised that I forgot to turn off his alerts and been fangirling over his photos both in Camui Gakuen and Akumu-chan set...

*cough* Anyway... I didn't go to language class yesterday because of the strike and later, I will be going to church for the youth fellowship and practice for a surprise party. I'm going out alone since mom and dad are VERY busy today and I'm pretty nervous because it will be my first time going out ALONE to a place. I'm freaked out, but I guess I'll be fine, as long as my bag won't be cut open again.

And... CHRISTMAS!! OMG CHRISTMAS!! ehh.... still can't think about that. I need to send Sandy in return, like a card. Hand made card, maybe? And dad kept on asking me what I want for Christmas. As much as I wanted to tell him I just want to go home to Philippines, I simply said, "A new phone. LG L5. White." Maybe I just can't tell them. They worked their asses off to get me here in Italy and I just told them that I want to go home. At first, I really don't want to come here anyway. Yeah, in high school, I did because I'm always alone, now that I found friends, and a best friend that I could trust.... Sorry... about to burst in tears... let's not continue that.

Love Lots
Kari

H E A D A C H E diaries.

もしもし,Kariちゃん?今どこ? (Hello, Kari? Where are you now?)
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Right now, I'm in the bedroom laying while making this post with my phone (well, dad's phone.) while mom is fixing her closet, getting all the summer clothes in the luggage for storage. I'm having a really terrible headache because of exhaustion and also from the food I had for dinner.
A lot of things happened since I last posted here, and I can see it's already collecting dust.
Allora... I started language classes here, I guess I did mentioned that already in my last post... earlier, we had a trip to the museum at Berra (I forgot the name but I think it's Brera...) to check out the paintings with my new friends, Clara and Rani and also, my parents are also there since my dad is my schoolmate and he can take mom with him. I did enjoy the trip but my feet were sore because of the cobblestone streets that we have to walk.
Days before that, mom and I went to the perpetua (Idk what that means, too lazy to translate) for my permit to stay (they call it permesso di soggiorno here) and my codice fiscale (don't look at me. I told you I'm lazy)...I have this appointment this Thursday an next wzpeek Friday for a constitution class and I am OBLIGATED to attend... though I don't really wanted to go.
Then, I met up with my band, Fools Among The Stars, for rehearsals and recording session...one successful song (well ,it's a cover) finished! I'll post the link at the end of this really short post. Then one time, riding the 14 tram, some Romanian cut my bag open, and took my pouch (where all fade logo pendants are, even the materials I used). Fortunately, they didn't took my wallet, my cellphone, my travel card and my life... anyway, moving on...
And Sandy sent me a Gumi wig. I haven't received it yet but I will pay for it as soon as I get a bank account fast. I am so thankful to her, really, and I just want to hug her so much! And yeah, she's busier than ever, having those interviews and exams and she still got time to update KoD and the German ST of fade. I haven't been updating much since I left the ST's in Philippines and SEA.
I guess that is it.
Ciao! Love lots!
Kari
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As promised: CLICK HERE for the off vocal preview of our version of Hatsune Miku's Rolling Girl

First week in Milano

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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Today, I'm at home...my new home in Milan... in the bedroom, waiting for mom's shift to end (well, she just left), wanting to kick her network provider or move to the living room for a better internet connection. Just sitting on the side of my bed beside my iPad, being charged. I'm supposed to review my lessons for Language (Italian) but I'm too lazy and I haven't got my official book yet. I feel really lonely here because I have no friends here and I still don't know this place so I can't go out for a stroll. Actually I can, as long as I'm with mom.

Right now, I'm just waiting for time... because we're going to Esselunga later to get some groceries and probably stuff I can use for school.

Since I got here, everything feels like it's a dream that I can't wake from it. Everything feels new, and different, of course it's your first to come here. I always had the feeling like I'm actually being surrounded by enemies. I actually wanna go home now.

Anyway, a long recap, if you're not to lazy to read, I will be posting pictures. (hahahahahaha)

Just munching on my breakfast while inside the bus... I just woke up at this hour and I think we're in Siesta that time...ah no... the bus just left Siesta, already on our way to NLEX via SCTEX.

camwhoring with my sister lmao

showing off a smile and yes...still exhausted.

This one is in Robinson's Luisita.

Yep, outside the airport. And that's a LOT of people, mostly going to Palawan and most are OFW's

my oven burn... this will help me remind of Claudia and her awesome brownies

"All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go..." ♪

We waited until 3PM there, outside the airport and went in for check in. The guards won't allow my siblings inside so I already bid my farewell before going inside the airport.

My boarding pass to Singapore!!!!

Waiting....

I was unable to take pictures in the plane, even in Changi Airport in Singapore... So the whole time, I was bored. I remember u:zo taking a picture while inside of a plane before on their way to EU (the Tetris in-flight) and looked for it if there are chances that they have that game.... well... viola! They have it (I love you Singapore Airlines!) and played, almost most of my time there from Singapore to Milan.

Anyway, got nothing to say anymore but here are the rest of the photos when I arrived in Milan Malpensa Airport.

yep...

"SQ 0378 has arrived"

"Benvenute in Milano!"

Me and my mom

My dad taking my luggage outside to the car

I just feel like taking a photo of dad's car...

Ohai there little Prada bear

Malpensa Airport

City proper of Milan

Love lots

♥ Kari

10 Day countdown to EU

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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Today, I'm at home, resting for now. I will be a bit busy for the rest of my days here in the Philippines... and yes, I have my visa now! Woo-hoo! My brother is here, smoking a cigarette in front of the window while listening to Pitbull's music. It's really chilly today, and there's a tropical storm nearby, going towards Japan...again. (￣ｰ￣;)

Lots of stuff happened again since I last posted. I did mention about the sleepover in the last blog, right? Well, got a HUGE problem regarding that. Well, also connected to Facebook (I really wanted to deactivate it but I can't.)... o(；△；)o GAAAAAHHHHH EVERYTHING CONFUSES ME! Well, I had a problem with my "friend" well, she thought I was attacking her but I'm not even attacking her, and she involved a lot of people, mostly from the internet cafe she's always in and my best friend since high school, and now, I really don't wanna show my face there since I became the bad guy now. *sigh* This will never end though, unless I apologize to her...well, why would I apologize? I'm not attacking her, she attacked herself. She's the one who caused that problem to herself, not me. *sigh* People nowadays.... 

Another thing, I went to this counselling seminar in Manila 2 days ago at CFO. Our seminar started at 9, well honestly, I was a bit anti-social at first, but then these people with me who are also in the seminar, they revealed my total craziness. I'm not supposed to show the real Kari-chan but... oh well... We had group activities and introductions, and of course, what to do in the airport for the first-timers and what to get if we're already in the country we're bound to go. I found new friends there, but we stayed on touch in Facebook. At least I knew that I'm not actually alone there, right? :*:・(￣∀￣)・:*:

And yesterday, I accompanied Claudia-chan to buy a dress she can use for her friend's 18th birthday since she was included in the 18 gifts. She bought a really nice dress from the bargain and she bought it for only P99 (apx. $2.50), then we went for ice cream at the McDonald's Dessert Kiosk, and went up to Porta Vaga then to Haveeshap (the only anime store in the city) and to Azotea Greens for snacks. Candy ordered Crispy Kang-kong and Potato and cheese soup there and it's really good. 

I'm enjoying my last days here, well, not actually enjoying, since my brothers don't allow me to go out that much. *sigh* Less than 10 days and I'm off to Italy.

I guess that's it!

Love lots ♥

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I don't really know if this fade Street Team event will push through next year. I'm not the organizer but the other members are.

My days are numbered

もしもし？Kariちゃん、今どこ？[Hello? Kari-chan, where are you now?]

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I'm at home, in front of the computer, eating chili and rice. At this time, I am waiting for my brother to wake up so I can prepare to go out to pay the electric bill. Lots of things happened last week but it did seem like I survived. Sleeplessness, more acne outbreaks and sleepovers...And more food. Speaking of food, I think I gained weight again lol

My brother and I took his girlfriend out on a trip around the city, and she liked it. Too bad, she had to leave last Friday to go back to work at Convergys in Ortigas, 6 hours away from here, bus ride. We bought souvenirs for her to bring to her family and co-workers and also bought something for us. I bought a small knife with a sheath, and my brother bought a jacket. I did mention this in my last blog post last week. We even went out night strolling and biking at the park beside the lake, by the way.

Second, another appointment at the Italian Embassy regarding my visa...well, visa interview. I was so nervous [way more nervous than standing in stage to perform, or getting caught by someone] that time that I even asked for KiAi from my dearest fade Family, even asked fade's Noriyuki and Rui to wish me luck or tell me anything to calm me down. Noriyuki is a bit late, I think about 5 hours late or later while Rui... yeah... after two days... but at least they responded, right? I got Noriyuki's tweet when I was already on my way back to Baguio. Well, the good news regarding this is I can finally get my visa on October 2, and this time, I'm travelling with my brother, since my uncle cant accompany me anymore because it's the birthday of his son. Oh crap, I just remembered, I haven't told my mom about that... or did I?

Behold...Noriyuki's tweet.

And Rui's

Next, I met up with my friend, Claudia in an internet cafe near her university... well, just in front... because we planned for a sleepover in her aunt's house, 30 minutes away from the city. It was funny because it's not to the fact that it's my first time having a sleep over alone, but it's because of the fun times that we had to make pizza, that I wasted my allowance for a box of doughnuts filled with Bavarian cream, that Claudia fell asleep while we were watching The Rite and when we hiked in Ambiong, just to feel the beautiful breeze. In the afternoon, I helped her look for and buy a gift for her mom because it was her mom's birthday. Well, I bought a leopard-print top, a doll dress and a lolita top from the shop Claudia and I went in.

Yesterday, there was an event in SM, and I didn't bother myself to get my Akaiko Shion costume because I will meet up with Claudia again, because I was invited for her mom's birthday. I met Shari-nee and talked a little regarding Claudia [that's a secret already] and more hugs from her ♥ I missed that gorgeous Fil-Swiss beauty o(=^.^=)o because we haven't seen each other for...errrr...weeks? After that meet, more food. more phone calls, more stalking and yes... more food.

Oh yeah, and today's my high school senpai, Atsumi's 22nd birthday.

Well, my days ARE numbered because I'm leaving Philippines in less than a month. I have a lot of stuff to do before I leave and probably troll more people since they will never see my face again in 2 years...no, make it 5 years...or maybe forever if I have totally fallen in love with Milan.

I think that's it.

Love lots! ♥

Walking around Baguio: DAY 1

Good evening guys, going to post another nonsense here (lol) but I'm still doing it anyway... My feet are sore and I'm so sweaty, and I'm waiting for the water to boil so I can enjoy a cup of coffee before hitting the shower... I sort of served as a Tour Guide for my brother's girlfriend who came here in the city all the way from the province of Bulacan (that's like more or less 6 hours away from Baguio) and the first day of roaming around is tiring, I admit, but I enjoyed a lot, walking around, strolling and eating! Well, yes, I did mention that my feet are sore, but they will become worse in a few days and I still have an appointment at the Italian Embassy this Thursday morning.

Anyhow, for starters, I will apologize for the really bad resolution of my camera but I hope it works here in this blog post... I will promise for better photos in my posts real soon...

Arriving in our first destination: Baguio Botanical Garden, one of the most well known tourist spots here in the city. Most of the pine trees are here so the air's fresh (well, except if you go closer to the horses...) and you can walk around there and enjoy the view and the parks.

My brother and my brother's girlfriend, walking down from the stairs.

Yep.

The horse.

And the other horse.

Our first stop in the garden: souvenir shops lined up.

My brother bought this for me. It's a blade, really sharp and it looks like a micro katana (lmao). I'm keeping this with me all the time, just in case for emergency. Anyhow... it's my new toy~~!!!

MORE SOUVENIRS ~~~!!!!

The tall trees~~~~

More stuff in the shop.

I bought this :D It's a really sexy sweater and it's really warm ♥

Them again.

More souvenirs outside the shop.

More stalls and their products.

I remember this wood carving (yes, it's a wood carving) in my childhood. I remember this when we were in our old church and beside our church is a place called Igorot Stairs and these wood carvings are there. Well, it seemed like the Botanical Garden management bought these carvings and transported them there. One one of the carvings here lost its head.

The garden's sign...

The couple~!

I can see my eyes xD

Le neko

Just a statue of a native along the rocky stairs. It looked really creepy~

Pathway...

Just the bridge in the Taebaek Park in Botanical Garden.... behind this one is the Philippines-Japan Memorial Park.

BORED~~!!!

Just another muddy pathway to the Philippines-Japan Memorial Park.

Here we go!

The spirit gate (I don't know if I said it correctly but that's what my brother told me...correct me if I'm wrong)

Leaving the garden now and off to the Mansion House.

The Buckingham Palace inspired gate. This gate is placed during the Marcos era... I think?

Another view and behind is the Mansion itself.

Zoomed in. That is the mansion house and we're not allowed to go up there. That house is for the President and such...

Actual view from my position.

From up there to down here. Yes, the stairs of Wright Park! But from up there until here, you will never like the breeze. Yeah, it is windy but if you're gonna inhale, it's not that good at all because all you can smell is the horses' crap and pee.

A tourist riding one of the horses...

Mangoes with sauteed fish sauce! ♪

Well, after this, we sat for a short while, took a taxi going up to Mines View Park and my brother and I are deeply disappointed to what happened to the park. There's a lot of changes in there. The simple Mines View Park turned into an another central business district of the city and us, the actual people from Baguio who got another chance to stroll around, are not happy about the changes. anyhow, we still went for the classic stroll in the park and stare at the really deep cliff as if you're going to fall.

Dried squid in skewers~

View from Mines View Park's view deck. I only took the mountains because it's just really nostalgic, with a hint of wanting the old Baguio back.

After this trip, we ate lunch, decided to go home and take a rest but then my friend, Claudia, called me, and she wanted to see me so I went there. What surprised me when I got in her house is her HYDE hair [and yes, it's sexy] and while taking a stroll around the mall, seeing the faces of the people, seeing their reaction to Claudia's hair is just priceless.

By the way, we stopped by in the bookstore and bought something that I will never, ever gonna regret.

And going home, I bought something that will satisfy both my thirst and hunger: MOGU MOGU~! ♥

I guess that's it for now... there will be more for the Day 2! lmao

Love lots everyone ♥